Me..My LifE..Me..n mOrE of Me...

5 weeks...tick tock tick tock...

2011-10-25T23:31:00.001+08:00

Barely 5weeks left till the financial year is over.. Just feel tt while everyone seems to be sprinting forward, I'm like nt even moving!
It's soooo frustrating especially when u know tt you're trying so hard, but yet nothing seems to be going in your favour..
I guess perhaps just nt organised enough.. Too lazy.. Just bothered by so many other things.. Distracted by them..
Excuses maybe.. But it's time I get my act together else sure miss mdc de!!! Can't believe it!! Even mdc aso need to stress until like tt! Hopeless!!! Arghhh....

To buy or not to buy??

2011-10-18T15:35:00.001+08:00

The bosses are 'encouraging' my BB to get a car by year end.. N my dear boy seems kinda keen too...
Am I wrong to stop him frm getting one?
There seems to be soooo many factors to consider..
Am I thinking too much? Controlling too much??
Arghhhh....

Year end sickness

2011-10-11T22:03:00.001+08:00

Having headache again! Seems like a trend especially towards the end of the year!!
Hate this stress!! Somehow can't wait for the end of all this! Wanna clear mdc ASAP!!! Get away frm all this stress!!!
God help me please!!
Fast fast clear! Smoothly.....

Different yet the same...

2011-10-07T00:40:00.001+08:00

When we weren't together yet, on some nights I'll keep myself awake just a little longer in hopes that I'll receive a msg frm you ....
Now that we're together, on some nights I'll keep myself awake just a little longer in hope that I'll receive a msg frm you....
haaaaaizzzzzzz.....

New President!

2011-08-28T23:01:00.003+08:00

Aiyo..wanna write up some documents..
Just done with the hari raya cards, surfing the net, checking my emails, trying to change the season parking for car...Oh!! Haven check out facebook yet! So seldom online that when i do get on my computer, there's just sooooooooo many things to do!

Not forgetting that i've neglected this blog for kinda long too! Haizzz..
But these days im always just soooo tired! Nt sure if im losing interest in the things tt i have to do daily. Or is it because im just doing more stuff nowadays. Like staying up late or waking early. Or simply just doing stuff that im not comfortable with. So making tt extra effort on my part.. Maybe tts y im soo tired!

Anyhoos, Singapore just went to the polls for the 7th President.. And early this morning at 4.30am, the results were out. Dr Tony Tan is the chosen one.. The one for my generation now.. Hopes he does a good job! noO! a GREAT job... times ahead seems rocky.. Just hope he's wise and stable enough to bring spore to greater heights..

God Bless!!

kk, think i wanna go do a mask sleep le! hahah.. iknow.. quite abrupt right? But im getting tired.. haizz...what's new!/!? =p

So sian so sian so sian ahhhhhhhh.....

2011-07-04T18:39:00.002+08:00

Im sooooo fan ah!!

Haven managed to close anything since like a super long time ago!! arghhhhh.... Im meaning life cases..

Met 2 goondoos on sunday at JURONG! Half-way across spore for me! Yet cldnt close..waste petrol! It's sooo frustrating la!
Then 2day met an existing client at northpoint yet still cldnt close..The things he said made me soooo frustrated man!
Plus what a friend msged on saturday aso made me super upset..haizz..dun wanna say more le

Im just so sian now.. BB not around to lend me a complaining ear.. Though i got things planned le, but still wish my BB is around. Miss him soooo much.. He's gonna be back tmr!!! =) Cant wait for tmr night..
Wonder if he'll just hug me or kiss me right on the spot? hahah... he sure wun do the latter de. So must prepare my heart for his luke-warm response of seeing me tmr.. bleh.. dumb dumb bb...

4 more days till BB comes home =(

2011-07-02T21:17:00.002+08:00

BB went vietnam.... I miss my BB... Wonder what he's doing now..... 4 more days till he returns..

Despite the occassional squabbels n frustrating moments we have, i finally realise nw from this distance apart, that im still so into you my dear!!!

Love u zhu zai!!! *muacks*

Waiting for 5pm appt since 3pm!!

2011-06-22T16:22:00.002+08:00

*Piat* --- that's the sound of another fly dying
perhaps aso the sound of my bones cracking from all this mindless waiting... urrghhhh...

Arghh..

2011-06-20T23:34:00.003+08:00

Very sian very sian!!

Apprehensive about the roadshow which is from this thurs to sun.. Worried that my back will break from all those long-standing hours.. Scared that it'll be all a waste of time!

Then aso sian cos my dear dear seem to be very unable to 'move faster' in terms of biz.. Then can feel like he wants to do more but now experiencing what me n livia call the 'stuck-in-mud' moments..
Haizz..... i wanna my bb to acheive greater success.. But maybe this is to make sure his head doesnt grow too big too fast? hahah..haiz, just sucks to see him this way la. Then feels somehow i cant 'motivate' to as much effect as before.... Waaaaay before... Before when we were just friends.....haaaaaaizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....

Sianz aso cos my mama acting weird.. Emo.. Think she needs to make new friends.. She's all alone too often liao..Yet she doesnt want to go out mingle leh...haaaaizzzzzzzzzz........

Fan ah fan ah!!!! arrghhhhh......

Something shld be created to bite back those damn MOSQUITOES

2011-06-08T14:41:00.002+08:00

So itchy itchy!!!!

So many mosquitoe bites from tt fishing session yesterday!!!!! arghhhhhh....... *ren ren ren*

Why must the joy of fishing with my bb be tinted with the frustrations of the mosquitoe bites i get EVERY TIME!!!!!!??!??!

*scratch scratch*

Funny thing is bb doesnt seem too bothered by his bites mostly... Then again maybe i get more bites cos im usually sitting down n not moving around like him.. Or perhaps, im just sweeter than hiM! =) Yeah, tt MUST be the main reason..

arghhh.... soooooo freaking irritating la...wanna sleep!

15more mins......

2011-05-27T15:39:00.002+08:00

My bb is coming back!!! Woohooo...just a short 3 days but i miss him sooooo much!

Now at tanah merah ferry terminal waiting for his arrival! Cant wait to see him.... *excited*

BB go bintan!! Day1

2011-05-25T23:50:00.000+08:00

RARE CHANCE TO BLOG!!!!

Shifted not long ago.. my mobile connection has been terminated and i haven gotten round to fixing tt up.. But by some chance, borrowed quackie's mobile connection and so here i am!! =)

Feels a little...... Dunno what word to use... Just kinda feels nice being able to blog again

But im soooo tired right now. So this wldnt be a long entry.

The BB is now in bintan enjoying himself! Hard-earned trip so im soo happy for him too! Hope he can take this time to recharge himself! =)
But tt leaves me alone here.. cos he n D are both on this trip cos it's some noobs-challenge thingy and im not involved.. boohoo~

Come to think of it, this is the first time ever since we got together that he's on a trip without me! And there's gonna be another one in july when he goes to vietnam!!! DOUBLE booos...
But im really glad for his achievement la.. Seriously.. For him to accomplish what he has so far in this career, really makes me proud.
(Why? Cos i feel that it's MEEEE who has been encouraging him all the way.... =p )

K la..still very stressed now cos trying to do up some clients summary of plans for them.. And im yet to complete them due to limitation of techology.. So tt aso explains why im here..
But im sooooo tired now that i think i'll stop here.

Good night world! Till the next time im lucky enough to get connection and feel the inspiration to blog..

Man, i miss blogging! Feels like a diarrhoe of thoughts being spilled into actual words.. damn shiok! hahahh.....

A break soon...

2011-02-25T22:12:00.002+08:00

Going to bangkok in less than a week...not really tt excited..haizz.. wonder why..

THen again maybe i already do know why...

Production at work has been damn lousy this month.. putting aside the 7+days CNY break..then then the stupid roadshow thereafter..haizz... Haven been bringing in much biz.. Not even close to what i need to do..arghh... All these postpone and cancel make me even more pek chek!

Anyway to be honest, maybe i AM a little happy for the trip.. A short break at least.. Realised that the need for a break is getting more n more frequent these days.. No longer can chiong for one full year then feel tired or half a year then start screaming out of frustration...

Oh well, got to end here...Someone's watching...

Overeating sucks

2011-02-13T00:01:00.003+08:00

Just had a suuuuuuuuuuuper full dinner at Seoul Garden with mama and The Boyfriend...Soooooooo bloated till now la..

Worse thing is that while the stomach feels like bursting, the nose is happily leaking~
Argghhhh....really hate my nose la!

Never knows when it's gonna go koo-koo...Frustrating.. pEk Chek!!

My poor BB was having a bad day but thankfully the night ended alright..Just kinda wish we both had our own place to get back to...instead of splitting up to separate homes...
Just feel like nuaing with The Boyfriend while playing with his hp game now...ahhh, the simple pleasures of life...

Till then, it's me, my leaking nose and bed... Good night for now world!! *toodles*

CNY eve

2011-02-02T19:55:00.002+08:00

It's Chinese New Year's eve! Though dun really have the whole cny mood thingy going, but still feel good that finally can relax abit..

At my aunt's place..they're at their reunion dinner at the in-laws, and finally i have the room to myself.. Just to relax n be myself.. ahhhhh...

Privacy feels good when it's sooo rare to have... Miss my 'alone' moments in my own room just doing my own stuff... reading, lying down dreaming, sleeping, playing game on hp.... you know.. those stuff that u can do when no one is watching your every move like the way things are right now!

I seriously cant wait to get tt place in april!!! Would perhaps be one of my best bday present for this year~ Gosh, what i would give to have my own place right NOW!

Anyway things have been packed day in day out for the past few weeks! Almost everyday's 'lunch' is at 3+4 pm!! WTH man.. I just hope things would improve after this short break.. I don't think i can continue to survive with 1 meal a day and fully packed days for much longer!

kk, being chased to go shower and then eat.. See! No bloody sense of freedom...

I MISS MY FREEDOM!!!!
I MISS MY PRIVACY!!!!
I MISS HAVING MY OWN ROOM!!!!! argghhhh....

HappY LunAr NeW YeAr folks... off i go to bathe now...

Quick update

2011-01-11T21:23:00.004+08:00

Decemeber has been a crazy month! Soooo many changes in tt month.. Plently to update.. Many that cant be just explained in a few words..
As a quick update, i have cleared the target for 2010! (Thank God!!) Then aso changed car in dec as well..

Many nice things happened.. quite a few nasty stuff.. A pleasant surprise along the way of the month and then many yum yum treats here n there..

A summary of the month in a few words... =p

January is looking to be a busy busy month... Many things to do.. Both work and personal.. Haiz.. Forever soooo tired! Never enough rest man! haiz., Cant wait for things to settle down abit at home.. Hopefully can clear ALL my targets for work this month. Then can happily enjoy the CNY break in feb..

Hoping and praying for the best! *fingers crossed*

Bus/train-ing again....

2010-12-22T00:04:00.003+08:00

Ive sold my car... =(

Missing my baby of 3years9mths!! Because 2day i had to take public transport!!! OMG....my feet are aching like mad now.. my shoulder as well from carrying that super heavy bag everywhere!!! arghh...

Anyway officially sold off the car on 20/12/2010...awaiting the arrival of the new one.. Cant wait man! Dont think i can tahan taking public transport for many more days...

The journey home is crazy lo..Sooooooo long! Plus crowded and smelly.. Somebody farted in the crowded train just now somemore...Stupid ppl.. No sense of manners meh?

Think im spoilt huh? hahah..to a certain extend i'll admit tt i am.. But it comes with a price.. A price of a big hole in my pocket! haizz...

Anyway the only good thing i can think of in taking public transport is tt can sleep during the journey.. tt is if can get a seat 1st la...But tts the only thing...nothing else liao..at least in this tired state of mind, i cant see other benefits le..

arghh...gonna go sleep now.. Suuuuuuper tired! Still short of target by a little bit....hope can clear.... *fingers crossed!*

Good nite for now.....

I need a holiday again!!

2010-12-17T16:39:00.003+08:00

Im sooOOooOoOoOoooooo tired!!! The last few days have been packed with activities and troublesome issues! There are short breaks in between where i'll be trying my best to calm down my over-working heart la, bt the brain is always thinking what's up next ...
What to do.. Where to go....How to do.....Short of how much... Who to meet... And then you...Ok la, not in tt exact order la..But... OMG.. Im just sooooooo tired la..

Im really really hoping that i can settle everything asap then take a short break.. Be it locally or even getting out of spore for a day or 2 aso i happy.. Just cant wait to clear the target at work n settle the car thing.. then the nonsense at home aso..

Haiz.. k la , cant write le.. Got to go off to another appt.. Arrghhh...... Give me a break soon please!!!

I love surprises! =)

2010-12-12T13:55:00.003+08:00

The last few days have been crazy!!! It's really either one thing after another if not when there is a break, it's like super bo liao! So extreme!

Anyway qualifications for the financial year has been extended till end of dec...so as of now, still kinda stressed over the target.. Still short of abt 6k.. Initially already considered giving up.. So the extension was kind of a good news yet frustrating news at the same time. Of cos, at this point of time, i WANT to achieve it la! But still....haiz..... hate this neither here nor there feeling..

Then im also in the midst of getting a new car! *grinz* Excited yet worried... Still wondering with all the mess at home, whether now is really a good time to make tt change.. haiz..

So just from the above 3 short paragraphs, one can already see the roller-coaster of emotions im going through on a daily basis! Wow....looking back, it's been a crazy few weeks..

Anyway christmas seemed to have come early for me this year! =)
I love surprises (nice ones of cos!) and i love receiving gifts... Esp around christmas time like this when sometimes people will surprise u with gifts so thoughtful that u cant help but feel crappy for not getting them something equally thoughtful or nice..

To defend myself, i usually can get quite nice gifts if i really know the person im buying for..but sometimes. . .. .hee.. .

Anyway so few days back i was really happy when i received an unexpected gift from a dear friend!

It was so out of the blue. So random. The present was something i would have wanted to get eventually...But to receive it as a gift.. And of that price..Of that brand! Gosh.... I think speechless was my 1st reaction..

Realised shortly after, that to date, that's the MOST expensive gift i have ever received from a friend... I mean from just 1 person.. Those shared gifts not included la...So wow.., Im still kinda in shock-pleasant-weird-feeling whenever i look at the paperbag it came in... (like right now...) hahah..

But really really happy.. Thank you friend for your gift. I know ive thanked u many times before..But i really appreciate the thought behind it..

Oh well, im supposed to be calculating my figures now instead of typing this..So guess i better go do tt now.. Crazily early and long day tmr.. haiz... Good nite cyber world... Till the next time i check back here... tata....

Oh well.......

2010-11-14T20:41:00.003+08:00

I would gladly treat you to ice-cream any day.......if you were my bf....

Lousy system

2010-10-24T21:58:00.002+08:00

Pen: Checked
Paper: Checked
Calculator: Checked
Ideas: Checked

Damn system didnt let me in to calculate the shortfall! So im gonna relax the night away..
Nose going koo-koo again suddenly..haizzz...

我真得不明白。。。

2010-10-23T22:36:00.002+08:00

- Is there really a need to compromise soooooo much in a relationship??? Even for simple things...
- Why do one still go through all that?
- Where's the happiness in that???

Countdown: 1mth 10days

2010-10-17T22:41:00.002+08:00

Had a very bleh day... Bought some makeup and painted my nails.. So had kind of a nice pamper-myself evening...

Now mind back at work.. Left about 1mth 10days before the end of financial year 2010.. Im starting to freeak out more.. Cos still far from target!! Ok la..to be honest with the double credit thing, hope still seems there.

This is exactly what i was hoping, praying and waiting for! Just wish that the range of plans under the campaign was more than just those 2.. But at this stage, i'll accept anything.. Any double credit is better than none!

But guess even if achieve MDC, the pay aso lup sup.. So hopefully can achieve the original amount. Best can hit the 35k bonus tier.

Ok, to those not in the company, the above is just a whole load of bla bla blah...So do just ignore this entry cos it's just me ranting on and stressing out over the target..

About $15000 left.. Can i do it?? mmmmm.....

Surprise surprise

2010-10-16T23:41:00.002+08:00

Really wonder why is the weather soooooooo bloody hot these days!Esp the past 1 week.. Was pespiring like mad just now while playing game at the void deck.. Not even a slight gust of wind loh~ argh..

Anyway found out about something ytd which got me quite uncomfortable.. I know it's not right or nice to say it this way..It's not as if im swatting away admirers like flies. So i shld feel honored that he's blind enough to feel so.. But 有时候feeling不在,就是不在啊...

Funny thing is that i dun even communicate much with him in the first place. So im not really sure, how it got to this. Hahah...I seriously hope he doesnt say anything. My gut feel is telling me something i dun really want to feel right now..ahhh...

I think i know too well the joy and also pain that 暗恋ing a person can create. So while im seriously puzzled by what he sees in me, i aso dun wanna be the asshole that hurts him.

Let's just hope nothing happens.. He gets real busy with work n forget all these nonsense..
I sometimes feel like murdering my cupid angel (if there is one la) u know! Shooting arrows at all these people who i dun even fancy but not even one at the kind i like! Why! U blind or what... Need to send u for re-course arh Cupid..

Postnote

mmmm..oh noo! Something just came to mind.. Do you feel the same way abt me too?!?! As in what im feeling towards him now? Like im putting u in the same position as the one im dreading.. oh shit..

Failed expectations

2010-10-09T00:35:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i dun understand why i get myself sooooo worked up over what u said or how u reacted to somethings... And then i realise it's because what u say matters to me. I treasure your comments,be it good or bad.. So then i try to see things from your point of view.. Sometimes i get it..Sometimes i just don't.

Today, i dont..

Im getting sick n tired of living up to your 'expectations'. I know im not answerable to you for any of my actions. But somehow your approval matters to me. Could be because we've been friends for so long n i treasure the friendship we have. But perhaps to you, it's all a different matter now.

Im frustrated how u think too deeply into any of my actions. Drink coffee u aso got something to say..what game i play aso something to say...u know how tiring it is trying to do things when everything i do seems to be judged by you?

Maybe im thinking too much. I know u're just watching my back for some things i do. And i really appreciate it.. Thats why i even take what you say seriously. Perhaps too seriously at times that your unhappiness or 'black face' affects me more than u know..

Im just very tired of the ways things are right now..just gonna give u your space n hope things turn for the better.. Lesser contact lesser conflicts i guess... oh well..

Tiring sunday..

2010-10-03T17:10:00.003+08:00

It's sunday..Im waiting for an appt which has been postponed from 6pm to 6.30pm.. And im not sure why but im really reaaaaallly tired today.

Feeling soooo drained of energy. I mean im generally complaining that im tired,like all the time.. But today i just feel soooo drained. Like even typing this is taking lots of effort. You know the feeling where u feel like u're breathing so shallow n slowly. That somehow u can picture all your internal organs sleeping. Im feeling like that now.

Super in no position to go save the case later.. Haiz..Hope i can convince her not to withdraw but just lower the amount.

This weekend has been kinda lousy in terms of production. Im starting to get worried because the financial year is ending soon. October has just started which means there's barely 2mths left to financial year 2010. Im like abt 17k away from target.

Do-able? I really dunno.. Ive done it before.. But i really have no idea whether i can do it again! I know what needs to be done to achieve it. I know what kind of plans can help me get it. But all i need now is to find the group of people who'll help me get there!...

Just hoping and praying that the initiative that we've started will give us results very soon! Good results..no wait, GREAT results..

Haiz, guess i should start writing the undone paperwork now instead of being in here.. On moments like this, i kinda wish that u're here so that i can lean against you. Nua-ing together as we both do our own stuff.. Quiet comfort in each other's company.. mmmmm... im soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tired ar....

=(

Felt like a long week...

2010-09-25T00:45:00.002+08:00

Just finished a long night of planning for a new initiative me n a few others are doing for work.. Suuuuper tired both mentally n physically but very satisfied with the end product now!

Still have lots to do but hope things will move smoothly ahead and very soon we'll start to see results from our hard work! =) cant wait..

So tired but don't understand why i cant get to sleep.. so decided to come on here to blog and surf the net..maybe it'll help to clear my mind abit..
haizz... dun understand why i have to suddenly be so affected and spoil the ending to my night..

Somehow tonight reminded me of a very unique sticker that i once saw on a car few months ago..

'得到你的人却得不到你的心'

I wonder why tt driver put tt up in the first place man! Very unique though..not the usual car sticker stuff that u'll always see.. I even took a pix of it! hahah..

haiz..dunno what to say le..just can say i probably can understand how tt driver feels.. aiyah,dun want to sit here n emo le..有些事想太多还不是这样子。。。

argghhh..good night people!

Hari Raya Blues

2010-09-12T17:38:00.002+08:00

On festive days like the one that just past (hari raya), it kinda sucks being a child from mixed parentage.

Being half chinese n half indian, whose religion is islam, one cant sometimes help but feel that one doesnt belong to any ethic group.

I mean yea, on the IC im an indian.. But i know nuts about tt language or culture. To be really honest, i dun even feel indian. Besides the longer eyelashes and being follicle-ly blessed, i dun even have much to say about tt side of me!

THen the chinese part.. yes, when cny gets about, i get sucked in by the hype n traditions..the cleaning n stuff... But when it really gets to the actual day..bleh~
Only need to visit granny n auntie.. Then im done!

I kinda wish for the large family get-together.. The auntie of the auntie of that uncle.. U know the whole family heritage mess.. I dun even have that to complain about?!?!?!! Or maybe at least not one tt i know of.

Then as for hari raya, once again mainly celebrated by malays.. It's just a minor affair for me.. We used to invite people over on the actual day.. Busy with guests and all.. But even that lost it's appeal after awhile. We no longer invite cos who do u actually invite on tt day? My chinese friends?

And once again, there's that missing auntie of that auntie of that uncle...! The whole big family thing again. All my festive celebrations are all soooo small-scaled. Half-fucked..

Money packets are also halfed..Enjoyment halfed..True meaning.........???

haizz..maybe because stuff at work sucks. Maybe im just super bored.. Maybe it's the weather..But this time round, hari raya doesnt feel as festive as it's meant to be.. Im in depression.. =(

I need MC!!

2010-09-04T23:42:00.002+08:00

Throat pain
Nose leaking
Headache
Ear block
Shoulder sprain

Can i get a MC please??

I wonder. . . .

2010-08-25T21:09:00.002+08:00

When u said that you understand, I cant help but wonder what exactly do u understand?? And how much do u really know???
_______________________________________________________

Im not sure if u'll read this or anything..And im not typing this just to get attention. This is just part of my life & thoughts that im putting into words so that years later, i'll remember and perhaps benefit from this experience.. Life is all about growing isnt it?

ANyway back to the point.. If one day when im totally over this, and have the guts to ask you.. I'll probably ask you why did u do what you did? Why did u have to make me for so deep for you?

Some part of me wants to talk this out with you.. A part of me is just afriad (of what i dunno)..A part feels that 'what's the use?!?!'..Not meant to be then not meant to be lo.. Accept n move on..
If i were to bring up the topic, i seriously wonder how u will react...hahah.. i dun think u'll initiate this conversation though.. sooo..mmm..cant help but wonder... haha..

Oh God, feels soo hard when i still have to see u everyday. Not seeing u hurts. Seeing u hurts as well.. Gosh...

God, please give me the strenght n faith to get through this...I still treasure the friendship. But please strengten my heart n bless me with wisdom to not fall deeper.. Oh God, please guide me through.. THank You..

Time for the walls to come up

2010-08-17T21:10:00.002+08:00

Think it's time to start building up the brick walls-- around the strongest yet at the same time weakest muscle in the human body....

I dun want to go through this sort of pain anymore.. Too tiring and takes tooo much out of me.. Not young enough to endure this sort of pain. Love less..Hurt less.. Live life to the fullest in all other ways..

Im guess im still glad tt i got to know you cos i think part of the reason why i got back so quickly in terms of production at work is partially credited to you..So ya, thanks for coming into my life.. I just wish that if i knew then what i now know, i would have known when to back away..

oooh well...yet another lesson in "Life Sucks"..

Why did i not go?!?!?!!Arghh..

2010-07-25T23:13:00.005+08:00

Randomly watching videos of the Jay Chou concert 2010 on youtube..it was friday n sat(ytd)... and damn!! I wish i wasnt such a stingy poker and paid tt $100+ to go watch ah!!!

It's sooooo nice!! Wat was i thinking about man!??!! He even sang a song which is the FIRST song tt captivated me to him many many years ago! ahhhh...for soooo long ive been hoping he'll sing it during his concerts n he didnt..and now that he DID, i wasnt there!!!

kill me kill me.... ........

=(

Always on my mind

2010-07-14T22:23:00.001+08:00

--illustration inspired by stickgal

Pre-World Cup Finals Misery

2010-07-12T00:25:00.002+08:00

It's now 12.30am.. The Finals for the World cup starts at 2.20am..That leaves me with 2hrs of total lost at what to do!

I've already looked through my email..scanned some blogs..Tried shopping online but the loading is slow so decided to give up on that.. Hear some songs frm youtube..

And now, ive decided to blog a little more before giving up on the electronic world and see what else i can do till 2.20!

It's Holland vs Spain for the Finals.. Im supporting holland..a last minute decision change. Actually not really last min aso la.. But just had this feel that Holland will win.. Let's hope im right! =)

Apparantly there's this octopus which has been predicting pretty accurately the results of the matches..And this time the octopus,Paul i think..tts his name (!) predicts that Spain will win!
However there's this bird in Little India which has also been pretty accurate in the results..Now this birdie says it's Holland!

sTUPID...Of all matches, their prediction is opposite on this last and final match! Obviously set out to confuse ppl la.. Irritating...

Initially i thought follow the octopus so that at least if he's wrong, then im gonna take revenge by having a sotong-feast but then again...aiyoh,abit stupid to put money based on an animal's prediction right?

Oh well,let's hope i WIN tonight! hahah...

k,im gonna go see what else i can do till then..time now is 12.40..barely passed any tme at all...argghh.. Time is really subjective huh.. Why does time fly by when it's the weekend or when im enjoying myself or when im with him yet go sooo slowly when im waiting for something to happen..

I know i can go sleep first but i know i SURE super lazy to wake up later if i sleep now..Then i'll miss the WHOLE match... okok,ren ren ren..

Maybe go watch tv.. tata~

Ouch! My heart. . . .

2010-07-06T23:25:00.000+08:00

-drawing inspired by Stickgirl

Think It's Time To Let Go. . .?

2010-07-04T21:54:00.001+08:00

-drawing inspired by stickgirl-

Macau

2010-07-02T22:09:00.003+08:00

Back from Macau! Had fun.. Place is bigger than i expected.. Hotel room was comfy..Didnt get to spend much time in it though.. But the pillows.. . .I just wanted to bring them home!

The designs of the casinos there are madness! One just bigger and louder than the other.. Amazing infra-structure too! Didnt really get to enter ALL the casinos but that island is just sooo different from the others ive been before..

We touched down in the evening and by night, the whole place is just filled with lights! Amazingly bright lights! Had problem taking photos that night..Thought it was due to the crazy amount of lights.. LAter just found out that my camera was spoilt!

What a bummer! A spoilt camera on a trip especially when most of the itinary included sight-seeing! Sooooo many great sights which were only captured miserably using a handphone! bleh~

But oh well, the memory is always in the mind and heart. Really had fun during this trip. Seriously nothing to complain. Except perhaps on the losing money part and the trip being too short.

Hmm,no further holiday plans coming up..kinda sad.. hahha.. Earn more then find a getaway for year end! hee. . .Huat ah~!!

THE Challenge!

2010-06-24T22:00:00.004+08:00

Today i accepted an interesting challenge.. And im all excited about it now! Let's hope the 'excitment' stays because this challenge lasts till the 31st of August..So if it all turns out as planned, at least i'll look good in the photos of my mama's 60th birthday party.. =)

Here's the challenge: To lose 5kg by 31/8/2010.. They're expecting to be able to see the difference physically.

My opinion? I'll SURE win this challenge!

Funny thing is that there are 2 guys who are betting against each other in this. One says i cant make it. The other says i can. I somehow think that they have ganged up waaaaay before this. Then one act as the bad guy and the other the good guy so that regardless so, i'll still wanna win this to prove to them bOTH!

Anyway what's in for me is that regardless which of them wins, i'll have $50 if i lose more than 5kg.. Im looking at at least 8kg min.. sooo WHAHahahHAh!! Dumb dumb pig, u better start saving up now!

FYI, dumb dumb pig is the one who thinks i cant make it. hmmpph...im sooo gonna make him eat his words!

Oh and just for the records, dumb dumb also mentioned that he'll buy me something special for my bday next year if i make it.. Even said that it'll be at least $200.. Now that's such a sweet incentive to lose it and keep it off...at least till april! hee. . .

Hmm..wonder what tt thing is?? But honestly i bet we'll both forget abt it when the time comes la.. But still...mmmmmm....

Losing sleep over?

2010-06-10T23:34:00.003+08:00

With all the heat from facebook and twitter, nobody really do blogs anymore do they??

But i guess there's only limited things that can be said over twitter. And facebook isnt that great for sharing mental comments too.. oh well.

THe only reason why im here typing this is because im hoping to get myself soooo tired that i'll sleep throughout the night tonight! The problem is not falling asleep.
It's just that suddenly ard 3+ 4am, i'll wake up for no damn reason! And this is despite what time i sleep! Many friends have said tt it's because my mind is preoccupied with something. But the thing is that unlike in the past when if i do wake up in the middle of the night, i would at least have an idea of what is bothering me. Or what got me to wake up.

Now, i don't even know why im awake! I just cant understand why this keeps happening night after night after night after night..

It's not even because the room is too hot or too cold. Im getting quite frustrated over this because then when it's 7am, i finally get to fall into a deep slumber. Only to have to wake up ard 8am!

Thank God that i don't start work at 8.30am or 9am! But the past few days i had to wake up at 7am for early meetings and this lack of proper sleep is killing me!!

Im sooooo tired by mid-day..im sick and tired of waking up suddenly in the middle of the night la..i.just.want.a.full.night.of.sleep!!!!

I hope there's no need for sleeping pills yet right??? mmmmm...hope not....

Random update

2010-03-21T23:52:00.003+08:00

I think ive neglected the cyber world. And as a result, have lost contact with quite a few friends... =(

Not really lose contact la.. More like not really that 'in touch' with each other anymore. With everyone busy with work and working on their own time schedule,it's been difficult to arrange a meetup.. There's also lost time on MSN..ahh, lots of great converstaions that i used to have on MSN.. Now a large void cos ive hadnt been in there for ages!

Hoping that now with a new laptop, proper connection.. i can be more webby-connected then before.

Sighz..then again with all these late nights, who am i kidding!?! Nobody's gonna be online in the morning/afternn.. And when everyone's on at night, im either working or away from the computer so i still wun get to chat with them.. haizz... Time to get a blackberry? =p

Stomach of anger! Lousy bday dinner!

2010-01-09T23:10:00.002+08:00

Im sooo pissed! Really annoyed over what happened at dinner earlier. We went to celebrate a collegue's birthday over dinner n drinks..

And as im not speaking to S right now, i was already not tt keen on going. Furthermore tt asshole even said it out loud (knowing that i was ard!), that if i was going, she doesnt want to go! WTF man! Princess attitude go elsewhere and show la.. Nobody owes u anything here!

Then heard frm A that the bday fellow wld hope tt she goes along cos he feels that she has helped him previously. So it wld be good if all can gather and enjoy. Firstly, i cld have made a show out of not wanting to be there too.. But i decided that he didnt deserve tt kind of attitude. Furthermore 1 bitch is enough! I don't have to condone her lousy behaviour by acting juST like her! hmmpphh...

Anyway then at the dinner earlier, she was sitting at the other end of the table. While wp was on my side of the table.. Somehow or another, halfway through dinner, she 'made' him switch to her side!

Aiyah, i know it's a small matter. But the buildup and everything else that happened during dinner pissed me off sooooo much la! Thinking back now, im too pissed to type further!

On a whole other note, i think im starting to fall for wp..I know i should not.. I know i need to stop before things get uncontrollable.. But. . . . arghhh... I just hate it when i fall for someone and then realise that they already have someone else in their heart..Worse still, in this case..he has her for 5years alrdy! arrghhh.. God please give me the strength to overcome this...

Aimless post

2009-10-28T23:10:00.003+08:00

Ok,waiting for a video to load on youtube so decided to blog something since last entry was ages ago.

Time is really flying by huh? So quickly we're moving into the end of 2009. Very soon it'll be christmas then new year. THen it's the time when most people start coming up with resolutions that they know they won't keep.

In fact, if i had the money.. I'll open a gym right before christmas.. Do crazy promo on it. THen wait for the big bucks to roll in just after new year when everyone starts to feel lousy for stuffing themselves during the endless parties!!
It's true u know. Ask the ppl running the gyms. People tend to sign such packages right after new year and go for workout quite passionately for a week or two after tt. Then it's back to the old routine. Im glad i didnt fall for that. (at least not yet~!)

Anyway i guess i dont have any main point in entry. Just wanna say that in a looooooong time, i have not felt this feeling of peace and happiness. I feel so in tune with myself,that on most days i am sooo glad to be just alive!! Seriously. I cannot put to words how i have changed for the better ever since the talk.

I once again, thank God for the day i chanced upon Tony Robbins' seminar. I thank God for giving me the courage to go ahead for the seminar even though i went alone and i hate doing tt. I thank God for showing me someone who changed my thinking and thoughts process thus indirectly changed my life since!!

I am soo grateful for all that i have right now.
I am SO grateful...

Wake up call!

2009-10-11T22:35:00.002+08:00

Something happened yesterday that kinda scared the shit out of me the more i thought about it.

Here's what happened..

I was driving along the expressway just below the speed limit. Then on the lane next to mine, there was this lorry that was carrying some goods at the back. The goods were packed in rectangular boxes and cling-wrapped. There was about 6-10 boxes in a stack. It was those open-top lorry so i could see that there were about 8 of such stacks in the back.

It looked innocent enough until suddenly i saw something flew off from the lorry! My mum who was in the passenger seat also saw what happened. Apparantly the top most box got detached from the stack perhaps due to the speed and flew off the lorry.. I was just beside it. What scares me is..what if i was BEHIND it!?!?!?

From the rearview mirror, i saw the box land right in the middle of the lane. I thank God that no car or motorcycle was right behind it or in the path at that point of time!!!!

Soooo freaky la!! It's almost like a wake up call! That life is soo fragile. That even though you may take the neccessary precautions on a daily basis, some shit due to another person's lack of competency or just pure bad luck can end your life!!!

I know im thinking too much into this.. But it sure did serve its purpose. I now feel even more grateful to be alive! Im sooo grateful that due to habit, i always stay on the 1st lane at that area.. Im so grateful that noone else was hurt too. Or at least to what i saw,nobody seemed to be right behind it.

Oh well.. Some say live life like it is the last day. Some say live like your life would never end. I say alternate between the two frequently and you've got yourself a pretty good game plan!

Reflection and gratitude

2009-09-26T18:22:00.000+08:00

It's been awhile since I last blogged.. But since the last time i did till now, i feel like a whole new person!!!

Nope, i didnt go on a trip or met a new guy..Eh wait, in fact i DID meet a guy! This guy has changed my life soooOOOOOoo much that i feel like a brand new person ever since!

Im soo excited that it's sometimes difficult to get to sleep at night. I wake up excited too! I suddenly can wake up at hours in the MORNING which i previously would curse and swear before i'll leave the bed. Im still very much a night person but now the mornings are not moments that i dread to see anymore.

I feel so alive. I hardly get bored. I got all these energy within me which i never had just a month ago!

Im soo glad that i got to come across him. Im so appreciative that i was at the right place at the right time. Im so glad that i put aside all fears and went ahead for it.

Because now, im starting to feel whole. Im starting to see meaning in life. True meaning. I probably understand myself now more than i ever did in the past 24years! And im so appreciative for that!

Just so that i'll appreciate this more, i must mention that just about a month before, i was in the lowest moments of my life. Not the lowest low, but one of the lowest. I felt sooo unfulfilled in my career, so unhappy with my health. Nothing was going right. Family, friends, financially, colleagues..Everything!

In fact just before the change happened, i met up with a sec sch friend. I was feeling sooooo bloody low that day im not sure if she felt it, but i felt like such a failure there after. Nothing special happened during the dinner but i felt like i lacked the energy and enthusiasm that i had in the past.

The feeling of being a living 'dead' is sooo painful and torturing that i now never want to return to it. EVER! Once again just so that i can remember this deeper and never fall back to it,i want to note down how bad i was before. Not so to wallow in the misery or gloat about where i am now, but so that i can compare between how bad it was and where i want to be and grow to improve further. To be more thankful and grateful for what i recevied.

One of the reasons why i didnt blog for quite some time was because i felt so lost in life. In fact, i didnt do anything i was supposed to be doing properly for quite awhile too! MonthS! Yes, i made the calls. I went for my appointments. I recommended accordingly. I was basically just going through the motions. And after months and months of that, it sort of just killed my emotions even more. I was aware and even put it as my MSN nick 'Going through the motions,kills emotion.' But i didnt know how to get out of it. Or rather wasnt looking hard enough to find out how to get out.

But without having to make this entry into a book, i was basically at my lowest low. I didnt want to meet up with my old friends much cos i didnt want to lie to them when they asked 'how's things?' Cos most of the time, the standard answer should be "Ok". But i waSNT ok. I was feeling bad. No, terrible!

Of course there were occassions during that period which sometimes made me happy for a few days. But that happiness never did stay for more than a week. At 24, i felt sooo old inside that i was probably ready for the retirement home.

That is why im so grateful that after sooo long, i finally feel as if im able to 'breathe' again. Like there IS a meaning to life after all! It's been 3weeks now that i've been feeling this way. And these 3 weeks have been the longest period of time that i have felt sooo blessed and at peace in the last 1 year.
At times I get so afraid that i will lose this feeling and all will return to the way it was previously. But deep down i know that all i need is within me now. As corny as that may sound, i now have the knowledge to stop myself from self-destroying. It's only the challenge of putting all that knowledge to use when the occassion arises.

I know to some ppl 1 year isn't that long to be unhappy,but when u're 24, 1 year is almost like 10years at age 40. Ok, that probably didnt make much sense to most people but to me, that 1 year killed me spiritually,mentally and physically. And that hurt like crazy!

Gosh, now all i feel every day is gratitude and a great sense of thanks to just be able to do the things i do. Make the choices i have. Life isn't all that difficult once you look past the itsy bitsy inconvinences after all!
Who said life isnt a bed of roses? You can either choose to feel the pain of the torns or smell the wonderful scent of the roses and be content despite the pricklings. Most people just tend to focus on the pain instead!

And no! Im not delusional or have decided to be contented with having less. In fact, now i want soooo much more but i don't go kicking myself in the butt or murdering myself mentally to achieve it as i did previously.

I know what i want and the way i should go about achieving it. I won't lie and say that in the past 3weeks, there werent moments when i felt anger or was upset or frustrated or unhappy. But now im able to break out of that pattern soo much quicker than before that i got surprised the first time tt happened! hahah..

So once again,i must say how grateful i am to have come across him. Seriously. I am sooo grateful for his passion and love for what he does! Im so thankful for the spark he created during those 4 days that has now blossomed into this fire that is burning within.

I really look foward to the day that I can say this to him in person. Thank you soooo much for your passion. Thank you for doing what u're doing the way u're doing. THank you for being YOU. Thank you, Tony Robbins. Thank you, Coach (if I may call you that)!
Though i do not have the financial ability at this current point to see you in Date with Destiny 2010 in bali, im gonna do everything in my power to get myself there. I just hope the seats don't run out before i get the funds! =s Just sooo hungry for the knowledge you have to share man! =)

Till then, stay happy my friends! Life is full of opportunities! EXPLORE!!

Confused

2009-07-29T12:21:00.000+08:00

Need a sign..

No Wonder I'm Still Single -__-

2009-06-22T00:04:00.000+08:00

Curly hair!

2009-05-21T22:17:00.002+08:00

I did something crazy to my hair ytd (20 may 2009)! haha.. for the first time, i curled my hair instead of going for the typical rebonding. Now it's a crazy mess! haha.. do i love it? Notyet, still trying to get used to it. =)

Decided that recently very suay so decided to do a change of hairstyle. So far so good. Haiz, let's hope things improve further!

hmm..what else did i want to say...

Oh oh, Star Trek was better than i expected! Weird thing is that the last 2 movies i watched are movies i totally never gave a chance before. One of which is Star Trek and the other X-men.

Surprise surprise! Im now interested to follow up with the other related movies to those two! Esp x-men!

Oh well, nothing much to update i guess. Or maybe there are just tooo many that i dun feel like listing down. Haiz, just wish i can get away for a holiday soon.. Feel soo stranded..

bleh~

woohoo!!

2009-05-03T12:40:00.000+08:00

Bali here i come!!! =)

Profound thoughts

2009-04-12T22:43:00.003+08:00

I was watching 'The Devil Wears Prada' earlier on (i know,a few years too late). And something about the movie sparked this mess of thoughts that are running through my head now. Im trying to phrase them out in nice sentences but currently it's still pretty messed up.

But it goes something along these lines....

There was this part in the movie towards the end, that Miranda mentioned that she sees a little of herself in Andrea [if i spelt the names wrongly,my bad!]. To which the latter felt that she doesnt wanna to be put under the 'similarity column' with the devil herself. So she turns back on her life, quits the job and find something else.

My issue here is that sometimes when u land in a job 'every girl would die for', there are sacrifices you have to make. Heck, even if you're working a sucky job or with an ass of a boss (like i do), we all make sacrifices!

Sometimes we become the evil person we don't want to be just because it comes with the job. Some wise people once mentioned that in the working society, the most successful person is the one who knows how to act the best. As much as i hate that sentence, i agree. Perhaps not fully, but there is truth in there.

And so we all act. We become the very people we term as 'bad people' when we were kids, watching those scheming tv dramas with plently office politics. As much as you hate to be that person, you fall prey to it and its benefits.

You resist, and you'll be the target of the boss or a superior.

With the skill of acting (among others), you start to climb The Ladder of Success. Through which u start to learn how to make decisions,push for your rights, make a stand, be demanding... And then sometimes add a touch of bad temper, you become the boss from hell.

As much as we hate them, those same traits made them the successful people they have made out of themselves. We always feel or believe that we can do a better job if given the chance. But how many of us really can?

So we hate them but like the lifestyle they're having. With all that money. Flashy cars and blinky jewellery. Yes yes, the idea that life can still be great without all those..is an idea put into our heads by the people who cldnt have those as well.
Without is good, but wouldnt having it be even better!?!?? If today someone gives you 1 million dollars without any strings attached, you wouldnt take meh? I grab and run loh! eh..no, i'll say thank you first before running.

My point is (at this point,im even more confused what im getting at. Bare with me.. haa. . ) mmmmm,what im trying to get at is that as we get older, we tend to lose a little of ourself that we envisioned ourselves to be when we were younger. Are you the astronaut or doctor or lawyer that you wanted to be?

We face reality (hate that word!) and in that process may end up becoming the monster we all never wanted to be. And so That Monster could be the one putting money into your wallets for recess or buying those shiny CLKs (you lucky bastards!) . But that Monster made sacrifices. Sacrifices that may not look like they are to the common eye until they see if from the angle of the Monster himself.

And yet sometimes not all can be brave enough to step up to the role. So we turn away and lead our simple lives, which we convince ourselves is much better.

p.s. All the 'we' above can/shld be changed to 'i'
p.p.s These are the messed up profound thoughts (hah!) that i have to struggle with every day! Someone save me from myself!!

i curse every breathe he takes

2009-03-22T21:09:00.004+08:00

Wow! Time kinda flies even when one is unhappy! I give FULL credit to the lack of blogging to my beloved big boss who has kindly made all those who failed to meet the target in february to report to office at 8.30am everyday in march!!

(to those who think there's nothing unreasonable about that, i don't even work a 8-5 hour type of job! I meet customers any hour of the day, so if that means my last appt ends at 9pm, i practically worked a 8.30am to 9pm! Tell me if tts fair! I really should consider complaining abt him to MOM!! )

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

2009-02-18T14:14:00.002+08:00

Recently went to watch 'The Curious Case of Benjamin Button'.. After 160mins, im finally convinced that Brad Pitt is indeed worth all the hoo-haas he gets from girls!

Such a looker man! =)

Story line is interesting. Was hesistant initially that it'll just go on and on about how this dude,benjamin, was born old then died young. But the dialogue between the characters was charming enough to make the 160mins worth sitting through.

It's almost as good as Changeling. Which for those who havent watched that, go NOW! IT's super damn good! Really. Such a great show with fantastic acting on angelina jolie's part! Furthermore it's more than 2hrs too. So really worth the money! hahha..

But back to benjamin.. THe idea of coming to this earth old and dying young ever crossed my mind. Think i even discussed it with somebody but i cant remember who..hmm.. Won't it be nice if we all died cute?

Stooopid roadshow!

2009-02-07T23:11:00.005+08:00

Just 1 week after the cny break but feels like it's been sooo long! Getting abit sianz liao! Bleh~

Oh eliza!! I'll be going to NTU in the coming week.. not exactly sure which date yet.. Think it's wed 11th.. Not confirmed. Having roadshow near the canteen.. Think u guys received some emails n stuff le bah...

Anyway i hate how messy the whole thing is being planned. Dumb organisers. Making shame to the word 'organiser' itself! They're sooo not organised la.. Yah,the banner looks interesting and all but all the logistic part of things are not even done up properly.. Sooo messy!

BUT... the welcome gifts that are being given out tt day sounds interesting. Let's hope things are produced the way that they mentioned! Sooo pissed lah.. Look like a bloody incredible hulk in the dumb t-shirt that we have to wear! Why won't the normal polo-t we have do?? Soooo transparant! The female t-shirt is all sooooo short in length too! Think everyone have short bodies ah!?!? People like me got good stuff leh..how to fit it all in tt teeny weenie piece of cloth?!?!?

hmm..maybe i should go get the guy's version.. But heard the quality of their t-shirt is even worse! hahha..must look into it before wed..

eliza,catch up with u for lunch when im there k?? Hopefully our break timings dun clash! =)

Memories. . .

2009-02-02T00:52:00.002+08:00

Today spent a good part of my time in the choa chu kang area having appts. Being in tt area somehow without my ability to resist, brings me back to a period of my past. Without intention, i walked by the bball court that he used to have trainings at on saturdays. Without extra thought, i started scanning the crowd for him ..well knowing that he's not even in spore.
*duh*

Then after, while waiting for a client to arrive at lot1.. Was staring out of the delifrance window.. Unconsciously, i turned towards the condo right opp.. Cant help but think about tt time when i went to his place to get some things. . .
*double duh*

The feelings are no longer the same. But why are these memories haunting me whenever im in tt area??

Sometimes i really wonder why i have such good memory for useless things like that but not for the important stuff! Oh well...

Anyway a slightly belated but not too late wishing of a vEey happy lunar new year to everyone!!! May the new year bring good health, prosperity and endless luck!! Huat ah!!

Oh, and besides 'his' memory tt im trying to erase, this song has been occupying my mental music junkbox.
It's by Liang Wen Yi-- zui xing fu de shi (pai say, computer cant type chinese characters!)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t_5z8RAqhWw

Nice mv and kind of a touching ending. Open your heart and listen to the voice and lyrics..Sure to cry de.. If not then wait till pms then go listen. Should be able to bring tears to your eyes!

=)

Stabbed

2009-01-11T23:06:00.000+08:00

Was 'stabbed' by jo quite awhile ago.. So here it is..

THE RULES!
bold the statements that are true to you
italise the statements that you WISH are true
leave the fibs alone
then, stab 5 guys to do the same test

I miss somebody right now.I don't watch TV these days.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I’ve tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I’ve broken someone’s bones.
I’m paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn’t survive without Caller I.D ( i wun die if i don't so im not gonna bold this..)
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don’t hate anyone. I dislike them.
I’m a pretty good dancer.
I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I’ve rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
I’m not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
I own the “South Park” movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I have dated a close friends’s ex.
I am happy at this moment!!
I’m obsessed with guys
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles. (among many other animals)
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can’t live without black eyeliner.
I don’t know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve ever written in
I can’t stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can’t stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I’m an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy. (duh~)
I am an adrenaline junkie.

Ok, i don't think anyone even bother finish reading tt up. . .but,it was a good reflecting time for me! Anyway so the 5 people who i'll stab next are: huiyi,ash (no excuse,use the crappygang blog!), livia. . . Ermm.. joyce & mon? hmmm.. Dun even think they read this.. but yah, you 5 go do it bah.. =)

back to my show!!

2009. . .

2009-01-09T22:28:00.002+08:00

2nd friday of 2009 le... Internally feels as if it's mid to late january instead of just the 9th! Perhaps im looking foward to the cny break!! SIX days!!!! wooohoo!!! Finally! But think somehow results still expected after that.. so knowing that just dampens the whole feel man!

Aghhh... Anyway, few days back i went for my FIRST drive on malaysia roads!! hahah..damn cool experience ah! Was actually worried abt my tyres and everything. Think the driving on the high way part was cool..no speed camera. No bloody car tailgating. No bloody car infront hogging the road. No bloody car basically! hahha

Went by 2nd link so traffic was like diarrhoea..very veeery smooth. Coming home, driving without street lamps part was kinda interesting.

Imagine trees lining both sides of the road. Then pure darkness. Cant see further than your high beam. Cool man! Wasted it was a cloudy nite so couldnt see the stars like i did when was younger. But still, interesting drive! Dunno why, but the whole setting somehow appears to be a good shot for a car commercial. That kept running thrgh my mind. =p

Hope to do it again soon!!! hahah. . .

oh oh!! btw the reason why i took sooo long to blog in 2009 was because besides a new website from which im hooked on to a taiwaness drama, i managed to borrow the FULL set of comics that i was introduced to during poly attachment!!!!

jo, remember MAR (marchen awakens romance)! haha..the comic that forgot-his-name was reading which i got attracted to?!??! tt SP attachment student!

4 years le!!! Cant believe it.. 4 years ago since i last left off from the book.. But now with the full set, where got time to blog anymore?!??! hahah..hoping to quickly finish it up! Then can spend the cny break watching my dramas! hahah...Im becoming so auntie man...

tata..off to watch the drama.. till another time. . . . . .

Self created happiness

2008-12-23T22:43:00.001+08:00

Nicely painted nails can actually make a person feel happier...mmmmm....

I NEED A BREAK!!!

2008-11-24T23:18:00.001+08:00

What an experience!

2008-11-13T23:04:00.001+08:00

Left arm crippled. Back aching.

Reason: 6hrs at the birdpark with the little monster

Never-ending. . . TIred

2008-10-30T21:50:00.002+08:00

One-Sided Love

2008-10-29T23:57:00.000+08:00

A wish for innocence

2008-10-16T23:28:00.002+08:00

Another picture to make my day. Haizz...i wish i cld be a child again.
No worries. No care for the world. No fuss

Monster

2008-10-16T23:05:00.001+08:00

Enough said. Cute monster.

irritating!!

2008-10-09T22:51:00.003+08:00

Aiyoh...fed up lah.

Wanted to post up pictures and videos from japan. But irritating photobucket keeps showing clips from the upcoming movie 'Quarantine'. I watched the trailers in the movies n i bloody hate the images and sound effects!

Yes yes. Im a wosey when it comes to horror shows. . but i just cant stand the skin-crawling screams and all those nonsense la. I have great imagination and image-capturing skills when it comes to such things. Those images will hunt me for a long long long long long long time! SOooo best way is to avoid it.

Therefore no pictures of japan till tt stupid trailer is off or till i find another place to upload my picutres and videos. Any good recommendations?? =)

Thoughts of a PMS gal

2008-07-18T22:51:00.002+08:00

Well well, things HAVE been changing around the office. Lots of displeasure. Anger. And in the midst of it all, my sense of confusion.

More like i know im angry with him but i don't want to be cos it's not really his fault but the monster with the knife bEHIND him! Im really pissed with the monster actually. But not sure if i shld let that be the reason to affect my decision. Of cos to all reading this, it's just a bunch of weird words strung together. But due to obvious reasons, i cant disclose more here.

Haiz, anyway moving along..

Oh, recently met up with the FULL crappygang!!! After soOOOOOOOOooooo bloody long man! Finally reunited! Wish i can put up the pix here but photobucket is giving me probs now.. But wow! Almost a historic moment! cos our dear Ash is going off again soon.. So the 7 will become 6 again. And who knows, when Mon decides to go off too and then there leaves 5. . . . .

Aiyah, dun mind me.. In my PMS mode again. Just hate it how my hormones get soo messed up these days. Think it has something to do with the stress levels? Argghh. . .

Well, i'll send u guys the pix asap k. Be patient.. Meanwhile i'll retire to my comfort zone (bed) for now to rest my PMS head.

Idiots moving along. . .

2008-06-01T23:06:00.003+08:00

Been wanting to blog about this a few days ago but didnt have the time..

Malaysian drivers!

Yes, u know how ppl always say that female drivers are the worst! Now i have another group of people in mind who wins the category hands down!!!

Firstly let me state that i do somehow agree that SOME female drivers are how do u put it... k fine, they're not really up to standard. But the emphasis here is SOME not aLL mind u! Being a female driver myself, i do pride myself as 'slightly above average' though being very frank, i do get my occasional blonde female driving moments.

BUT majority of the time, im good.

So back to the topic on MALAYSIAN drivers.. Being on the roads moving around spore for long hours each day, i can say ive seen quite a few incidents! Weirdos. Road hoggers. Nosediggers. Impatient bastards. Courteous ones. Dead cat!! the list goes on..

But living soooo near to the borders, i do share the roads as we make our way to and from work each day. And once again before i go further, i want to say that i have no problems with ALL malaysian drivers but quite a good handful have however gotten on my nerves!

So as i was saying.. Morning peak hour. Not usually an unbearable issue cos i leave my house ard 9.30am and traffic tends to be a little kinder around that hour. But these malaysian cars (oh! Dun get me started on the motorcyclists too!! Those bloody idiots like to hog the line divider before lanes 1 and 2!!! How the hell do i change lanes when they just keep streaming on forver! One bloody idiot behind the other!! Frustrating i tell u...)

Where was i? Oh yah, drivers of CARS! Now THOSE idiots like to hog the FIRST lane! I somehow seriously wonder if they were required to take tt theory paper the rest of us needed to take before getting license!??!

I mean isnt that the Overtaking lane? Meaning if u cant drive faster than the dude behind you, scoot over to the next lane and stay there! It's not even an issue of guts or pride man! Just a simple law to prevent road delays and accidents! But do they get it? Noooo. . . Assholes i tell u! The taxis from across the borders are also another one! Refusing to just move away! Even aFTER u high-beamed them! Horning at them doesnt even work too. Cos then they'll think that u're challenging them and either drive a little faster only to slow down again or continue tooting along.

Those that modify the cars are another brand of brainless monkeys. They speed pass u with their absolutely darkened windows ( arent they against the law or something!!) and follow soOOOO closely behind during a jam!

And if u think im just being bias agaisnt malaysian cars, here's one more example to top it all. Was parked at the curb of the void deck of this housing estate the other day. Wasnt a busy road or anything. But a few cars and taxis picked and dropped ppl off during the duration tt i was there.

THEN came along this *say it together now* . .MALAYSIAN car who dropped off a couple of his friends. I already knew he was trouble the min i saw his car plate! ANd i was soo right! After his friends alighted, he simply reversed so quickly till his bumper was like just <---> distance away from my right door! Horn-ed at him till i was almost about to get down and whack his car man! There's only a very thin line between being a skilled driver and a reckless one! He was much closer to the latter.. I was so close to getting a new door. Damn!

I tell u.. So bloody angry! Didnt even apologise as he went by after! As my friend puts it, ' Are u stupid or just dumb!' Boiling mad. . . Even as i type this now!

Aiyah..fed up la! Tmr i bet i'll face more of these idiots without fail. To hell with them!! They better not come into my path or else. . . . .

Fan ahHHH!!!!

2008-05-14T00:04:00.000+08:00

hAIZZ...

So near yet sooooo far again!!! Arghh... Seriously, why am i always in such a position??? Be it previously in studies or now in work.. Cursed or just not consistent?!? Must be a mixture of both!

Bleh~ Feeling sooo lousy now! If i dun clear this time, really dunno where to put my face. I want to prove those idiots wrong! I want them to eat their words. Fan ah!!!

If she clears and i dun,think i'll be in major hot soup man! They're gonna look down on me more man! ahhHHHHHHHH....

I just wanna get AWAY!!!! The month of May never used to be this stressful! Then again, back then May was THE month of exams... aiyoh,sooo fan so fan...

=s

Sorrow x 2 ??

2008-04-24T01:14:00.003+08:00

'Sorrow shared is sorrow halfed; Happiness shared is happiness doubled'

Why should shared sorrow be halfed?? When u share your sorrow with someone else, the burden of it is split with that someone isnt it? Then if that's the case, shouldnt the sorrow be divided and therefore doubled??

Why do we really feel the need to share our sorrows with others when times are bad? Are we humans really that weak or selfish?

23rd bday

2008-04-14T00:21:00.004+08:00

Firstly thanks for all the birthday greetings!! Came in all types of styles! So interesting..

Presents were great too..

Haven had the mood or time to take pictures of all of them..But below is just one of it..

Had to take it before it loses its beauty!

Anyway bad mood now leh..Think it's time of the month so no mood to do anything. Sianz....

k, let's update about The Day.. wow, it's going to be a week since i turned 23!! hmmm...You know what, i always felt that im waaaayyy older than that! With all the aches and pains, feel like a bloody 70+ grandma man!

Anyway, so last thurs started off as a typical work day.. Went about doing biz till about 7+pm then had to rush home cos mummy dearie cooked a whole army's worth of food to celebrate. No, make that food enough for the army AND navy!! Perhaps also enough for 1/3 of the airforce!! Anyhoos, sweet of her to do that so have to rush home eat lor.. But hungry so didnt have chance to take pix of the spread.

Was too full after that even for the cake. Furthermore cos reached home late, everything started late. Plus some friends were waiting for me to go to St.James!! So all was in a rush. Did a change of clothes then was out again to meet them... My first first of 23!!! Go home late then still can go out after 10pm!!!!! Like usually i'll be questioned to death by my dad so i dun even need to bother trying to go out after 9pm! Unless it's to go downstairs of which he'll already ask tons..

So anyway, chiong all the way to St James cos we didnt intend to stay till late cos of work the next day.. And quite meaningless to reach ard 11pm and leave at 12am mah..

When got there, wanted to go Boiler Room which plays R&B and more of the recent popular English music. Wanted to try something different from Dragonfly (chinese music). But from far saw a crowd of people outside Boiler.. Thought some event was going on..like a launch or something. And we were told that there was a private function going on.. Felt funny cos there were alot of females around.. Later found out that it was a Lesbian Night! Cool or not?!?! Whole place booked leh!!! Amazing..jo were u there? hehhe.. jk jk!

Was upset cos cldnt get in so we went to Bellini instead. Plays jazz and blues.. Didnt want slow stuff actually but didnt mind...

To start off with, there werent many people around. Nothing unusual for a week night.. Few tables here n there. Once settled, found out that tHe singer on stage was cute. =) Funnily he walked over to our table after the set and talked to us!! Another first... This is of cos not counting the times where i already KNOW the singer la...

But fed up lah, cos he stood by the side of the table which means i was blocked by timo, cldnt really hear him above the music! Here and there caught abit of the conversation la but being the super deaf me, sort of lost interest after awhile. His accent sooo strong somemore! bleh~

Then dunno how, i was dragged into the convo. and he was informed that it was my bday! die... It's never good to let the singer know that. Unless u want to be pulled on stage or something!! And that was what exactly happened much later in the night!

Worse thing was that i wasnt high enough to not feel embarassed by the whole situation!!hahah.. he actually walked over to me and manly offered his hand and guided me up to stage.

-_- but inside was feeling ^_^

hahha..first time mah.. At least to my best memory it's the first la.

So there he was singing me a bday song and guiding me to dance along and twirl but all the time i was wishing it wld finish up quickly cos when we did that, it was already 12am! So officially, it was no longer my bday!!! dumb right..hahha..

Furthermore danced like a frozen banana..so stiff cos was damn shy la..Ang mo leh..u guys already know i have a weakness for them right..then plus whole place looking at ME somemore!!! Yah, i know i have superstar background. But i ermm ermm... Erm, i wasnt prepared?? =p

Eventually that ended with a kiss on the hand and i was spared misery..returning to the comforts of my seat. Where he carried on the rest of the set. Another surprising thing was how he still remembered my name though the time frm when we first talked till the song was quite awhile!I mean i forgot his name the second he said it! But cos there was a poster of him outside, i rmber.. see! Told u my memory got problem le!

Oh so as i was saying, after the bday song, he then went on singing another song (which not surprisingly i cant remember the title), inserting my name here and there and all over the song!!! ANother FIRST!!! I mean someone singing a song to you and using your name somemore leh!!!! Not any tom,dick,harry BUT someone who CAN sing leh!!

Cool anot!?!? At first didnt realise, cos was talking to my friend then timo was like 'eh eh, he used yr name in the song leh!' Then i looked up and listened carefully and he winked! *all together now* Ahhhhh. . . .
it was love and first sight! hahaha....rubbish rubbish!! sprouting nonesense le...

I carried on being super pai say cos throughout the whole song he kept winking la, smiling la, came over to the table and held my hand la.. And u know jazz songs la, it's all abt those describe how nice the eyes are the hair is... ya da ya da.. Really sweet to be on the receiving end of hearing people sing such songs to you. But kinda weird when u have no feelings for the person? What i mean is that if i actually liked the person who was singing it to me, then the song would mean a whole lot more ya.. sighzz..

Anyhoos, after that set he came over and wished me happy birthday again..This time surprised me by giving me a kiss. *blush*

Silly timo asked after if the kiss was prickly... -_- duh. . .

Then after it was timo's turn to get high cos he dream girl jessesea (yup,the one frm spore idol) went on stage. That dude was practically drooling into his lap la! Kept staring and staring. By then we were the only people left, so more or less it became like a private function! hehhe..Cool u know..

The WHOLE band playing JUST FOR U! woohoo..hahha.. Then jeassea came over to the table wished me happy bday.. (Timo by the side wiping up his saliva) And then somehow my friend spilled tim's drink onto the whole table and ME. At which attracting my handsome singer who was standing around to grab some napkins and passed them to me. =)

But tim also enjoyed the happiness cos his dream girl came over to the table after tt and talked to him. I only saw part of it after i came back from the toilet smelling of beer.. eeEww!

Bet that guy was stuttering his name when she asked him!! hehehe... soooo funny to see his 'i-wish-u-were-mine-tonight-jeassea' look!!! whhahah

k, then fastfoward it all.. We left awhile after the whole beer-spilling issue with tim still fantasizing about her. But to give her credit, she's GREAT lah. Nice personality and very pretty too! Great figure.. Left tim begging me to send him the pix i took of him and her..hehhe..

Well, that ended my interesting night of 'first-s'..oh yah, and on our way back while waiting at the traffic light, we saw the van carrying jeassea and my handsome singer who waved cute-ly at ME (im gonna say me cos of the position of the car n van, IM the person he can see most clearly..so there.. hee. . .)

Gosh! What a long entry and i thought i'll finish this blogging in 10mins! haha.. Oh well, till next time then.. I wanna go unite with my bed le.. Oh and to the gang, study hard to those having their papers soon yah!!! Cya all real real soon... =)

The S word

2008-03-18T23:43:00.003+08:00

Sleep-deprived
Stressed
S uper tired
Sick
Sinus
Sluggish
Sore
Stupor
Sulking
Suicidal

Weird dream!

2008-03-11T22:27:00.002+08:00

I dreamt that my car was broken into! Vivid memory!! Scary.... Here's how it went...

I walked towards my car from the back then saw that the driver's door and the passenger's door behind the driver's one was wide open! Shocked, i wondered if i had forgotten to lock the doors. Getting frantic, i started searching through the items to see if anything was missing cos the whole internal of the car was a mess (tt was not really unusual considering its current state!!hehe ).. No la, but in the dream everything..papers and all my documents were thrown all over the backseat n floor.. =S

Then looked into the coin box that i keep change for car wash or emergency and realised that majority of what i believe is the correct amount was in there. So no money was taken.. Cashcard if i remembered correctly was also there.. So nothing was stolen?!?!?!

What in the world does this dream means man?!?!!! Im soooo freaking worried now! Car broken into yet nothing stolen? Good sign or bad? BEtter go fix that car alarm sooN!! ahhhh....

=S

Low

2008-03-05T21:02:00.003+08:00

Sometimes when things get bad or when one is feeling low. Cant help but wish for someone to be around. Someone to hear the complaints or just sit next to.
But sometimes even with that someone around, cant help but to still feel 'alone'. Cos to keep pouring your bothers to that someone would be kind of unfair isnt it?

Get up. Go..

My Most-loved Gadget of the moment!

2008-02-26T21:39:00.005+08:00

With this new gadget from Starhub, i can like blog anywhere and anytime man!! Now the only down thing is that the batt. life on my laptop doesnt last long enough for me to surf and then use it for my appointments after that.

The plus point is that since i drive, i can carry my charger along. Downside, not everywhere has a powerpoint where i can plug in and enjoy~! =(

Isnt it so small and beautiful? Anyhow since now i have proper connection, i'll share with you guys something else that i've managed to capture earlier this month. Haiz... Heart still very suan..

Dumb song..funny lyrics..

2008-02-19T22:21:00.000+08:00

Full of nonsense!!! but..... i LIKE! =)

Having a Bad Monday?

2008-02-11T12:52:00.000+08:00

Irritating look!

2008-02-10T15:19:00.000+08:00

Wat a smart-assed looking face! Feel like smacking it..Sooo cute though! Only he can pull it off!!

Love this song!

2008-02-08T19:01:00.000+08:00

Love love love this song!!!! So catchy!! cant wait to go watch it!!! =)

Simple bleh layout..

2008-02-05T15:08:00.001+08:00

I CANT GET THE TAGBOARD TO BE NEXT TO THE ENTRY POST!!!!!

This sooooo frustrating! Simple blog layout to give a change of outlook. But will still remain black cos most of the font colours for the entries cant be read on a white background. And i cant be bothered to go change the colour for every entry.

Anyways, fed up tt i cant get the tagboard up. So if u guys wanna leave a comment, do take an extra minute to scroll to the bottom to tag k.. Will see wat i can do to move it up...

bleh~

Jay madness!!

2008-01-30T13:59:00.001+08:00

Im sooOOoooooOOO crazy over jay now! Feel like a bloody 13-yr old gigglish girl whose main purpose of life is to chase boy bands and hide behind banners when the camera focuses on them.

(no offense to them ^_* )

But i really dun understand why i got it so bad this time! Perhaps it's the stress from work so im actually enjoying all these 'possibility' thoughts im fantazising of having with him. Like perhaps getting a pix or talking to him or asking a few questions. . . . . The list is actually longer than this but im just getting toooo embarassed to talk about it cos I think a person of my age and more importantly job scope should be more into things like the raising rate of inflation, the US sub-prime issues, possible recession that US may face.. blah blah blah... (k la, to comfort the possible clients of mine who are reading this, i DO keep track of those as well la..ya ya, im boring.... )

Haiz.. dunno what else to type about. Really mad enough to consider going to the airport on sunday to 'follow' him around after that. Luckily the adult-ness of my job requires me to meet ppl on sunday therefore i cANT GO MEET HIM!!!!!! ='(

cute eh... kop-ed from someone's blog.. Jay fans of the world unite!

Post-concert blues

2008-01-24T16:53:00.000+08:00

It's been quite awhile since i've updated...I dunno la.

Somehow after the taipei trip, it's been nothing but work work work.. Even fun times are burdened by the pressure of work.

Perhaps CNY is approaching so boss is pushing harder cos of the longer than usual break we will be given.. Or perhaps boss has gone mad! (latter is highly possible!) But whatever reason it is, im starting to feel pushed to the limits.... hmm, alright...not the limit lah. But almost there!!

Work is endless. Things keep piling up. If everything goes well, it is actually not that bad.. But when people dun cooperate or when the sales dun come in, that's when all those negative thoughts start coming in.. *hate it!*

Oh, and i now totally stand by the fact that stress can cause extreme mood swings aka PMS.

Ok la, enough of this work related shit! Guess the happiest highest point of this year so far would be ............. JAY'S CONCERT!!!!!!!!!!

(somehow cant bring myself to feel all that cheery now...this is desite the super 'high' mood i was in tt day! wooohoo~!)

Kinda depressed that didnt get to see him at a closer range.. Ended up watching the big screen most of the time to see his facial expressions or dancing. Only saw the dancers and all the effects when my friend showed me the recording of some of the songs.. Soo cool effects..

And even though it's been fully ONE week now since the concert, im still like C-R-A-Z-Y (!!!) over him!!! haizz.. even as i age, somehow still cant get rid of that childish dream of hooking up with a superstar!!! hhaha...so impossible yet somehow silently, in the dark of the night, cant help but give a little prayer that hopefully one day . . . . . .

=)

meanwhile still suffering from post-concert depressions...oh and work stress toOO!!! But the work ethics of jay is keeping me going on.. So successful yet still working on his birthday and CNY... how good am i to declare those days off! hahah... oh well..

*just keep swimming just keep swimming just keep swimming *

Back from taipei

2007-12-12T15:19:00.000+08:00

Im BACK from taipei!!!!!!!!!!

Some updates before more on the taipei trip... Firstly, i HIT MY TARGET!!!!! woohoOOO!!!
very happy but somehow reality hasnt really set in yet. Just feeling very lost cos it was like busy busy busy then go taipei..shop shop shop ..then back in spore and they expect u to switch mode just like that *snap finger*

Somehow haven learn the skill of switching mode from enjoyment to work quick enough. Feeling just like a motor that cant start! x_O

Anyhoos, chirstmas is just around the corridor! However as mentioned previously, still lost in transition so have not caught the mood of xmas yet. How sad~ I mean the nice weather. . . OH oH oH!! can i rumble more on the weather.. Isnt the weather these days just heavenly!! ahhh..

Ya la, abit messy cos of all the rain and wet feet n soaking legs of the pants..But the breeze and the mere coldness of it... Blissful!! Really love the warmness only this kind of cold weather can bring. Mornings are a killer though... Sooo difficult to leave the warm bed..

Okok, realise im just going on and on and on... Weather is really not just a boring topic man! Global warming has made it interesting!!! =p

Alright so yah, this coolness somehow makes me miss the days in taipei! I'll probably dedicate another whole entry to the trip but for a glimpse, it was pretty fun!

Firstly weather was fantastic! Cool not freezing cold.. Though it was a food heaven for me, those i tasted were yummy (hmm..ok..not all i tasted). Then shopping got quite a bore by the 4th day.. Probably cos keep going to a few certain places. Will xplain that when i blog abt the trip..

oh oh!! Got to go.. Will end this with a few pix from the trip..

TAIPEI 101

cUTeee!!!!

ALIEN IN MY FOOD!!!!

Nice mv

2007-11-08T13:47:00.001+08:00

The downside of dating a superstar??

Be thankful

2007-11-08T13:08:00.000+08:00

Nothing can beat this feeling im having now!! No, i haven hit the target i wanted (all thanks to my stupidity of raising the expectations for myself)..Long story..

It just feels so soOO great to just sit at the computer, listening to the music from Jay's The Secret (all thanks to jo's blog!). Was initially just checking mails and stuff then while listening to the songs, had this sudden urge just to blog down this random feeling of happiness.

After all if a blog or memory is only filled with bad times, what's the purpose of life yah?

I realised that all tooo often we really don't take pleasure in the little wonders of life. Simple ones like even waking up on a bed instead of... i dunno, under an expressway??
From the way things are, everyone tend to get so winded up by getting better and higher that the value of life loses its purpose. The VALUE of life.

Yup, so take a minute to look up at the sky. Breathe a little more air in your next breath. Be thankful that you have exams to get stressed over. Be thankful for the opportunity for the education. For me, let me take a moment to be thankful for having a job!

-Alright, the moment's oVER-

TIME TO GET STRESSED UP AGAIN PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!

laziness

2007-10-24T22:02:00.000+08:00

Through the day i had tons of great ideas about what to blog about... But now sitting in front of the computer, i feel sooOOOOo drained that i dun really feel like blogging about that topic cos i will do it unjustice...

*sighz*

sooo tired... Should i talk about it... hmmmm.....

nah... next time perhaps~

=)

NEW TAGBOARD!!!

2007-10-17T12:48:00.000+08:00

YO HO YO HO!!!

NEW TAGBOARD ADDED!!!!!!!

Jo n ash..try and see if u guys can tag this time.. If can't then it's a prob with your computers. =p

Selamat Hari Raya!

2007-10-12T22:49:00.000+08:00

It's hari raya eve!!! Honestly i cant say that im flopping excited or anything.. But of cos there's that bit of excitment and anticipation cos tmr we're going out for a nice nICE family lunch. Then i think some visiting before dinner.. Hmm, think will end up with late tea then no dinner like every year.

Somehow things feel slightly different this year. This year, im not all high on the 'let's do a huge gathering with family friends leh' mood. This year feels more like ' Im glad we're having a nice family meal together' kind of mood.

Lost?

hahha.. Somehow i just feel that as part of my job, im always meeting someone, talking to someone..Accomodating, listening, handling objections, reccomending blah blah blah.. Not that im complaining, but sometimes.. Special times like tmr, i somewhat feel like just spending it in a quiet slow-paced way. Not having to serve anyone food & drinks. Talking excitedly when all i want to do is laze around the house (dun get to do that often anymore!).

BUT that doesnt mean i dun wish that im having an open house to invite all of you guys tmr.. I still do like to have guests around. Though i know that im not a good host. hhehhe.. But however due to small area of current house, dun really find it a good spot to have any gathering whatsoever. I WANT TO SHIFT HOUSE!!! So sorry u guys, who mentioned that you want to come over. Not that i dont welcome you, it's just that the way things are at home, i think my whole family just want a simple fare this time. SRY!

ANyhoos, financial year is ending! Im stressed. ToooOOOOo close to target to miss.. However it's always soooo close yet so far!!! Why am i always in this kind of shitty situations! Why cant i clear things waaaaYYYYy in advance...

Study time aso last minute then chiong study exams.. Now work, last min chiong production! Sad case la..

So here's a plea from me, those who are looking for medical/ savings/ investment/ protection plans, or know someone who knows someone whose father has a niece whose friend is interesting to know more or looking for something of the above,do do do just give me a call or let me know k??

God Bless!!!

Till next time, peace out~

I live...

2007-08-29T21:05:00.000+08:00

What's up with the weather these days man?!?! It's pouring one moment and blasting hot the next! yes, yes..i understand global warming and all.. But *shake head* It's simply terrible man!

Ok, perhaps because i spend quite abit of time outdoors cos of work, this kind of weather changes somehow seems more of a bigger issue to me than before..hmm, perhaps it's really time i started applying sun-block!!! -fear-

Anyhoos, with sch started for the rest of the gang and me working my crazy hours (still), somehow will tend to think back of the days back in school.. I mean we really do tend to take things for granted till it's gone yeah?

Sometimes really wish for tt simple impromtu meet-up with friends but nooooOOOO....everyone else has something on their agenda that doesnt include u.. Boyfriends/girlfriends start coming into the picture which makes things all sooo much more difficult. Cos yes, it's only right to spend time with dearie and family when weekend comes rite? *sighz*

I don't really think I like adulthood and all its miseries. Can i go back now?

On a whole different note, the other day i was driving to work right... Then it was pouring like mad i tell u!! Now i understand why they term it as 'raining cats and dogs'.. Cos the whOLE windscreen was whacked by rain almost right the millisecond the wipers clear them, it might as well be cats or dogs with white fur lying infront of the windscreen! Was such a misery AND experience to drive in that weather condition man!

Everyone was tootering by at a speed of 20km/hr? hhahha..soo funny. But kinda scary aso la, cos some idiots are sooo bloody dumb as to not switch on their headlights so cant really see them. It's bad knw! Cant even see more than 1.5 car length away!

Oh oh!! And i saw a taxi half burried in a flood.. As in the area was flooded, then this stupid taxi (dunno how he got himself stuck in that position) was jammed in the midst of the flood. Not joke! Water was up to the window level of the car. Meaning his exhaust and bottom half of the car was suBMERGED!!! Hmm, think the insides was flooded??

Alrighty, need to go now.. Till the next time... Btw jay's movie, Secret, is fantastic!! Those who have yet to catch it, please really go do so before it ends.. Really really interesting storyline. Not the typical boy loves girl kind. Girl die of disease then boy moves on and have daughter named after that girl. Just go watch it la!

ps.: I miss you guys alot crappygang!!!! Ash esp!! How are u doing there?? U may not be able to reply in the tagboard here but nonetheless, i still hope u're doing fine there.. Guys, meet up soon?? =)

Sis's grad

2007-07-12T16:13:00.000+08:00

Wow!!! Sooooo many things have happened since the last time i blogged!!!

IM AN AUNTY!!!!!!!!!! hhaha..that is one of the many things that happened that past week or so.. *smiles broadly*

K, firstly... My sis had her graduation day on 6/7/07.. Me being very proud of her achievements, happily shot pix throughout her whole price-giving.

Some random shots before the whole thing started

Then got bored waiting for soooo long! Oh oh!! The 'fanfare' to welcome the Guest-of-Honour was soooo unexpected and funny that i burst out laughing right on the 2nd beat! It's a soOOOO not welcome-guest-of-honour-type of song! At least not the type i'll choose if i were in charge..

Anyway, here's some shots of her on the stage to receive her scroll.. (crappygang, remember OUR time?? Dr Chang with her lion hair! For once my hair looked almost tamed!! =p )

Here's THE reason why im sooo proud of her..

2nd in her WHOLE bloody cohort man!!! That's crazy and beyond achievable for me to ever dream of!

Her and fellow nerds taking a photo with some VIP..

After the official ceremony, had some munchies in the VIP room. My sis went chitting chatting with the lecturers and assorts of suit-clad people (my bro n i concluded that she boot-licked her way up!!!)

She spent the rest of the time running about taking photos with her peeps while family n i decided to rot in the canteen. So after about 1-2hr+ later, we headed off for a celebration dinner.

Nice place.. Slightly overpriced in my opinon. It's buffet style of indonesian food. Nice but not the best. Perhaps was slightly tooo full from the munchies at the after-ceremony reception to fully enjoy the food. AND maybe was a little put off by the price too. Not my choice of buffet food if u ask me.

ANyhoos, after eating...Me n siblings had short photo taking session.

At this point of time, photobucket is giving me a problem and therefore i cant carry on with this post as intended... *sighz* as if things arent going bad enough for me as it is... *someone kill MEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!*

Hate..Hating..

2007-07-03T12:19:00.000+08:00

Im currently at NP rushing for a presentation which is TMR!!! Kindly ask me when was i told of this assignment...? YESTERDAY!

Bastards!

Im soooo freaking pissed now. (note: bad mood could be due to a combination of lack of sleep, super HUMID weather, runny nose and pms etc etc)

It's no freaking fair to let your team know abt this presentation abt a week ago and let us know that we have to present too just TWO days before the actual day!!!! And u know what the stupid thing is, just because 2 of my other collegues were sick and on MC yesterday, i was tasked to do it cos i was convinently there! Like wtf man!!!! I AM really that pissed..

Yah yah, it's an honor to present in front of the new comers n all..But it's a whole other thing to make a fool of yourself infront of everyone just bcos u didnt prepare well! Fed all laH!!!

N since those 2 were not there yesterday, my team cldnt have a proper meeting and so 2day, i had to come in earlier than the usual timing JUST so we cld have tt meeting. As if a late night to rush the powerpoint wasnt bad enough.

Im sooo angry now, i dont even know clearly who im angry with! ArghhHHHH!!!!!! Spare me the teamwork crap..I know i shldnt be fed up with those 2 for not coming yesterday cos they didnt ask to be sick too..But the combination of it all makes me super unhappy about everything right now. So too bad if u had to see my black face this morning! Im PISSED!!!

Random thought

2007-05-22T23:47:00.000+08:00

If today, by some freak chance, you were to meet up with yourself.. As in a younger version of yourself.. THE person you were 10years ago..What would u tell that young fellow??

*ponders*

Car pictures!

2007-05-01T23:36:00.000+08:00

Everytime i log in here, i have the great urge to change everything! The layout, the background (esp!), the colour...Everything! BUT i cant find the time or energy to do it..

Im not sure if it's psychological or what, but recently..im feeling very verYYY tired too fast n too often! I think i do get abt at least 7hrs of sleep each night but somehow still feel tired..For now im putting the blame on a busy n tiring way of life day in day out.. N ALSO on the stupid irritating drivers on the road!! Anyhow cut lane.. tSK~

Really know..Just typing it pisses me off sooooo much tt my headache is back! Another thing tt didnt go away since my recent flu attack.. I seriously think i need to go for a checkup soon..It is not normal to keep having headache right? MAybe i knocked my head tooo many times against the car door or when bending down...So damn clumsy! cant stand myself!

Ai yoh...head hurting again.. Shall post some overdue pix instead..

side view of my baby (full front view has car plate no. so wun put in)

i like to take picutres of the nice figures...If u realise, the first one is taken when the car is MOVING!! heee. . . . missed the 1234 number cos didnt manage to whip out my hp in time! Actually i think i did, but it wasnt clear..So deleted it n when i took it again, it was 1235 le!!! HAizz...

More photos after i send my baby for a top coat..Baby starting to hate me for taking sooooo long to beautify it...

TMR TMR!!!!

2007-04-03T19:01:00.000+08:00

Im getting my car TMR!!!!!!!!!
AhhhHHHH!!!!!!! Still in a mixed of feelings...

*nervous giggle*

I cant wait to drive on the expressways n test out my car... But then again im worried of getting lost and all...Im still very lousy with the roads. Cant even get to the office properly..

I cant wait for the day when i can drive for one FULL day without having to freak out about directions or my lousy parking skills...

Btw really shocked to see that my car registration plate only has THREE numbers!! I mean my bro's n dad's cars nEVER had 3 digits...So a little shocked still.. The number is kinda nice though.
SGT ***X
(happy guessing)

Cant wait cant wait....Endless burden from tmr onwards.... God Bless!

My baby's coming..

Work work work

2007-03-30T21:10:00.000+08:00

I barely clocked in 10 entries for 2007! And it's already end of the THIRD month of the year!! What did i tell u about time being cunning!

ANyway, it's been some time since i blogged a nice long entry. Partly it's because i dun really have that much to say. Work is ...well, work. THere are the funny moments where i meet really really weird people. Or sometimes what they say..Their views on certain things really wanna can make me laugh soooo hard internally (cant laugh out loud at their childish thinking mah), that i think i'll die of some internal damage real soon!

THen again there are those who i meet who are real interesting characters. Interesting in a good way. Some soOOO mature for their age that i feel like one bloody childish idiot to be sooooo giggly n errm..childish.

Other than work, and of cos the stress that comes with it...ENDLESS stress may i add, there's basically nothing else going on in my life.

Hmm..oh GOT!!! IM GETTING A CAR!!!! Erm, as u can see...Have already lost a bit of enthu. about getting a car cos of all the big hoohaa that went along with it..Was a misery man!! Compare...Bargain..Research..Compare somemore...Ask around for better contacts..Compare MORE!

Big headache man.. And worse thing is, i afraid im not gonna like my baby~! The whole car searching process was actually quite interesting. TO cut long story short...Initially i was gonna get a Honda Fit , then on the ACTUAL day of signing the papers...Joyce called n told me something about some warranty issue regarding parallel importers ( i tink~) and that scared me off. Therefore i postponed the signing to the next day faking up some illness.
Then the nxt day (when i was supposed to sign, cos i found out that i was ok with the warranty thingy), someone called me early in the morning and offered a good deal for a Honda City. Was tempted found out more and got the City instead.

Why? Cos i felt that something was stopping me from geting the Fit! Am i crazy or am i crazy???!?? I bought something else cos my feelings told me so...I definately have gone mad!

Anyway im still waiting the arrival of the car. Wouldnt be long now. 3days!!! Excited yet scared. Happy yet worried. aahhhh.......

Stinky bastard

2007-03-08T13:55:00.000+08:00

I just got off the train sitting next to a repulsively smelly guy!!! I mean he reALLY stunk like woaH~!!!

Puke-inducing, appettite-losing kind of sourish smelly.. Smelt as if he had hidden a skunk who died probably about half a year ago, did not brush his teeth for the past one month AND yet to bathe for THREE yearS!!!

PukEZ!

Soooo suay had to sit nxt to him cos there werent other seats around and im lugging a damn heavy bag. * just yet another reason to get a car asap! *

Just my luck to cross path with tt stinky bastard!

Really not trying to be mean or anything know..I mean if it's body odour, yea..I may have some compassion for you cos though you can control how bad u stink, but at least maybe u can blame the weather or something. But that stench earlier. . . . God. Really lost my appetitte man!

Perhaps just God's will in making me stick to my diet i decided to go on..

=)

back from the dead

2007-02-23T00:02:00.000+08:00

I cant believe it!!!

Chinese new year is here....and GONE!!! Or at least the super shiok looong weekend public holiday is oVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*shakes head*

But it sure was fun while it lasted! =D

Sometimes, a break from be it work or study can really do more wonders for the mind n body than one would imagine!

Oh, realised that i seldom blog anymore too! You know why!?>!?

shhh..come closer...i tell u.....

i found this website that has like TONS(!!) of movies and practically evERYTHING on it! N No..it's NOT youtube! Some of the movies are sooOOOooo damn 'new' that it's still in the cinema now man!

So that's where ive been for the past few weeks! shhhhhh.... Trying to watch every single damn show in the database before tt site gets banned! hhehe.. Gosh...It's like movie world heaven i tell u!! Soooooo shiok! But mostly catching up on the 'old' shows tt ive missed. Which are like PLENTY!

Making slow but good progress. Which results in undone work. Cos every single freaking time i turn on my laptop, i'll end up watching some show! It's uber cool though! hehe..

Bye for now..1 more movie b4 i zzZZzz

Time

2007-02-06T23:09:00.000+08:00

You know what? I think time is a very cunny thing! Yup, tts rite.. TIME.

While you busy very with something or engrossed, time slips by and fastfowards itself soooo fast i wonder sometimes if somebody did slip by me to turn the hands of the clcok faster! (boy~ tt was one LONG sentence! hahah)\

ANyway, i came home earlier than normal today in hope of packing in a couple or more hours of much needed sleep. But after looking through my mail and some other sites, i realised it's freaking 11PM already!!!!! Im like abt 1.5hr away frm my usual time of sleeping! pui~ There goes my plan!

** Oh GOd!!

Just very much in shock!! I can hear some neighbour quarrelling..And not only was it loud, he slammed the door or something and my window actually shook!! 0_O
guys are mad man!!! tt bastard actually does this sooooo often these days that i really am starting to pity the wife!
mmm...can still hear him going at it.. Just praying that he doesnt lay his hands on her. Or whoever who he's shouting at... **

Alrite..so where was i before this....mmmm..

ahhh yah.. TIME.

See, now 10mins just went by..With me staring out of the window trying to figure out where is the noise coming from..Nothing achieved. Nothing done.

Haizz..Will i feel just that way when im nearing the end of my life?

Weather report

2007-01-30T00:27:00.000+08:00

Is it just me or are the winds getting reaaaaal strong these days???

Soooooo windy!!!!

In my opinion, of the many weather conditions, strong winds are one of those that Singapore is not prepared for.
I mean looking at how the trees sway sooo violently in the wind the past few days is terrifying!

Hmm..seeing that im actually talking about the weather (!), guess there's nothing else to really update about.. Ohh OHH! There's one other thing. But it's more of a personal growth..discovery kind of thing.. SInce my laptop is dying on me soon, i'll keep that till another time!!

*better dun wear skirt tmr*

Aimless post

2007-01-16T22:27:00.000+08:00

Hmm..Would there be meaning to post up a list of resolutions when half the first month of 2007 has passed?

Oh well. Haven really gave it much thought yet anyway. So shall just skip the whole thing for this year. hee..

Anyway 2007 is starting out alright with me. THough went through a bad case of hormonal inbalance a few wks back. Felt like crap the whole time. Glad it's over. .. issit? mmmm. . . .

You know what, i really dun know what to type now. I mean the moments i have sudden bursts of inspirations are always the times when
1) laptop batt running low and im outside without the charger
2) rushing for time
3) just before going out
4) the same bloody moment my sis wants to use

I mean yah, i cld and should have written it down somewhere so that i can get back to it when the timing is more favourable. But then the feeling would be gone. You get what i mean...

Haizz.. ANyway nothing much happening in my life right now. B-o-r-i-n-g
But no events is aso good i guess. Like how no news is good news.

=)

Im going dumb....

laa dee da. . . . . . .

cHEerios 2006..hellO 2007!!

2006-12-31T17:37:00.000+08:00

Woohooo!!!

I survived yet another year! Well well well....2006..
Been thinking the whole day of how i shld sum up this year..2006 has definitely seen me growing stronger emotionally and mentally. Plently of character building experiences..Laughter & tears as always. Many new friends made..

Let's do a photoblog of the year shall we...

Of cos how can i forget how the year started! Had a blast when my since-childhood favourite boyband came to Spore!!!!!

BACKSTREET BOYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woohooo!!!!

THen went through a whole period of self-discovery and thoughts about what i wanna do for the future.. Many moments of torturous thinking about my 'next move' in life.

In the midst of all these thinking, attended many 21st birthday parties. And also throwing MY very own party!!! Was a crazy experience with all the planning but it was sure fun! No mad surprises or major sabo-ing session but had nice clean fun..

And then few weeks after that, there was my bro's wedding!!!

That month also saw the start of my new career! And the possession of the most expensive electronic gadget i own..

Hmm..the next few months are currently a blank to me..But i do remember many late nights working.. Feeling of pure tiredness!
THen there was the phuket trip!!!! oh yes, 2006 saw me going overseas more times than i ever been in the past 10 years!!!

group pic. at phuket.

Hmm...The period after the trip was pure torture. Had to work real hard for the achievement i was striving for. Playing catch up for lost time. Of cos there were periods of fun too..

Then this month, went on a cruise trip..Still haven got the photos of that yet.

kk, perhaps it's getting a little obvious that im starting to rush through this. This is because the gang is coming over soon and i have still a few other work-related stuff to get out of the way before they arrive.

Anyhoos, 2006 did also saw me doing my many 'firsts' experiences.. eg.
First time drinking till puking (phuket trip)...
First time driving!!! oh yah!!! i passed in this fantastic year too!!!!
First time eating choc fondeau.. Talking about eating, i just realised that 2006 has been filled with many occassions filled with good gOOD GREAT food!!!
First time reaching hm real reaaaaal late (chilling session with collegues)!!
First time sharing a room with a guy (NOTHING happened).
First time drinking beer in such huGE quantity! (cruise trip)

yeaah...many more first i guess! Just dun think i'll go into it right now.

Oh well, i better end here.. Will edit again if i have time nxt year. Woah...2007!!
The year sure has gone by real quick this time.. Quicker than i last remember.
2006 is a great great year. Overall i survived the bad times and enjoyed the great ones.

New year resolutions would have to come in the new entry. Yet to give that a good thought.

So ending here, wishing all you guys a GREAT 2007 ahead!!!! May the new year bring u many new experiences! Great health, good wealth and endless joy!! And if u're missing the other person in your life, then yeah, may u find that person in this coming year (tt is if u want too la~)!!

Have fuN 2nite!!!!!

CHEERIOS 2006.... HELLO 2007!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

>mERrY XmAs ALL!!!<

2006-12-24T22:00:00.000+08:00

ho ho ho...

Merry merry xmas to all!!!

Back frm cruise and still suffering from bouts of motion sickness. But overall had fun..Thankful for the break. More comfortable with the people this time.. More about the trip with pictures (hopefully can get them compiled soon) in the next entry.

For now, just wanna wish all a merry christmas!!! Enjoy this long weekend with your loved ones, family and friends! Have fun with whatever u have planned to do!!

To the crappygang: Miss u guys sooo soo much!! Cant wait to see u all on wed!! -hugs~!!-

To the angels: Sry for missing out 2nite...hang out with u guys tmr!!! p.s. Still shocked frm bosley's msg!!! hehhe..cya gals tmr!!

HAVE A MERRY XMAS ALL!!!!!

p.s. Happy birthday!!! It's been good having u around these few years. Seeing u for the first time 3yrs ago was a special moment. U felt sooo different. Haven really gotten used to you..But this is what makes our relationship soo unique. Thanks for being around.
Happy 3rd birthday soapbar handphone!!!

Hours to cruise

2006-12-17T01:34:00.000+08:00

Im a few hours away to the cruise.

Finally just finished packing my bag..For the same number of days as the phuket trip, somehow i feel that my bag is lighter this time..hmmmm...
Did i forget to pack something????

-ponders-

Anyhoos, suffering from runny nose now!! Terrible~ Left eye giving problem for the past few weeks then now nose aso wanna join in! Tsk~!

Hmm..Just wanna comment abt the trip this time. We're going on a cruise of 4 days and 3 nights..Stopping at penang and phuket.

Somehow as compared to last time, i really dun feel excited leh~!!! I mean yes, i await the unknown of the next few days..The hours i get to just slack without guilt. The feeling of wind in my hair. THe possibility of meeting my future partner on board!!! hehhe..kk..now im getting excited!

But seriously, as compared to the past, im not really jumping in excitment over this one. Dunno why...Maybe im becoming a workaholic!!! =S

Or maybe perhaps im just sad that because of the meeting time for the cruise, i dun get to go to Siti's engagement!!!! ='(
Or maybe it's because of the early meeting time, i am ASO unable to go ahead with plans for tonight with the gang as planned earlier....

Sighzz...maybe it's all these factors that's taking the anticipation out of the trip.

Anyhoos, dun worry..I'm sure to make the best out of this trip!! Gonna shop shop shop at phuket...Buy all the things i didnt get to buy the other time. Then aso pack in sleep if possible! hehe..

Take care everyone!! I'll catch up with u guys very soon!!! =)

p/s: Crappygang....Sorry abt the cancellation for 2nite's supposed plans. We'll go another time k.. Soooo sorry!!!